Last night I stayed up late shedding many tears for a family that I only know through a friend and the blog world. Sweet Gracie at 11 months old went home to her Heavenly Father yesterday.
Little Gracie has touched my life, and I hope changed it forever. Last night I realized how often I don't love and hold and cherish my children like I should. I finally tried to go to bed at 11:30 or so but couldn't, so instead I woke my baby Kendra up and just held her for a good 1/2 hour. I sang primary songs to her and cried and cuddled her. The best part about it was that she hugged me right back the whole time. I then went in and kissed Maleah and Aubree goodnight as they slept peacefully. I now have a renewed desire to sit more with my children, play with them, read to them, talk with them, love them, cuddle them, and cherish them. I want to be slower to anger, and quicker to love and forgive. Slower to shoo away and quicker to pause and take more time, slower to complain about the demands of Momhood and quicker to cherish the moment I'm in. Goodnight sweet Gracie and thank you for touching my life, and reminding me what life is all about. If you want to read about sweet Gracie go here
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I have been reading her blog and crying as well. Interesting how the blogging world touches your life in so many ways.
You are my girl Shell!! You are my girl!
Thank you for your sweet email and for being an incredible friend to me.
Gracie has changed me as well!
I know exactly what you mean. I cried for an hour when I read her blog. Last year I found another blog of a baby girl who drowned last April or something. When I first found that blog it changed me forever. I think about that mom every day and how she would do anything to hear her baby cry. She was part of the reason I didn't worry about L sleeping through the night. I just got up with her and fed her and cuddled her and loved her until I weened her. She wakes up once now around eleven for a drink of water and go in and cuddle her and hold her and kiss her fifty times. I hate that they had to go through this and am glad to be brought back into reality every once in awhile about how precious my angels really are.
And now to less serious topics - he would watch TV all day! I don't know how that happened. I found out on his b-day though. I let him watch as much as he wanted and he spent the entire day watching tv. But he doesn't just sit there the whole time he gets up and runs around and plays while he watches sometimes. That is why I had to make rules. I think it actually ties into the fact that he is addicted to a sippy cup. He loves to just sit and sip water or milk. I think if I took it away a lot would change but I have a hard time weening them from things that give them comfort. I'm not even sure when the habit happened one day he just wanted one all the time and I didn't get that he was getting that habit until it was too late.
Whew that was long!
Dude, I read her blog too and started losing it and had to stop. It's just too hard sometimes. I did leave a little comment of support though.
I'm going to have to stop following your links on your blog...you make me cry too much :)
I too have been reading this blog, that I found through Mimi. It has just broken my heart. I can't even imagine what these mothers go through on a daily basis. I am so GRATEFUL for healthy children. What a sweet post
OH MY....i've been bawling! I was telling Jeff about it and started to cry. So so sad and heartbreaking
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